It’s funny my mom use to tell me that friends you have when you’re young won’t be the same friends you have as ana adult. However if by the time you have kids and you can count ur true friends on one hand you are very lucky. I would look at my mom like she had 3 heads and I would reply I have my friends back and they have mine.” Well as time went on and we grew up and you guessed it apart I now have 1 friend from high school and one friend I would of never thought we would be as close as we are now please consider our sons are 2 weeks apart and she has another on the way and our lives revolve around our family and having kids young you’re a slave to their schedule so we don’t see each other often. Same goes with my other friend from the 1 day in drama class freshman year I turned to her and said ” hi my name is Jasmin what’s yours?” We have not stopped talking but alas as we have grown I’ve moved out of state and back twice we still were close until the day we had kids. We just have different views and different opinions on how to raise our kids but I feel she is very temperamental when I suggest certain things. So I have realized to keep my opinions to myself and from that I haven’t been as close to her in fear I offend her in some way. There is a void of not having her in my life as I use to but a harsh realizat I n I have other peip K e that require my attention way more and are more receptive to suggestions.
I recently started noticing my inability to stay the course. I have been so distracted. Either obsessed with losing the last 15 lbs from pregnancy. The fact my 1 year old has the energy and focus of the energizer bunny and I am lacking on keeping up. The fact I constantly pick and chisel at my spouse for every little thing, granted most of the time it is truly necessary in my book. (especially when he makes up words and then truly wholehearted believes its a word and tries to look it up.) Just not good I was noticing I didn’t like who I was tuning out to be. I know I have a responsibility to set a good example for my son. So he is capable of having good habits relationships and just all around happy mental health and how horrible is it that he sees his number 1 woman in his life acting this way to other people especially his father. So I started talking a little more to my spouse we discussed therapy and the possibility of being treated for the outburst we both have. Now my spouse suffers from ADHD. However I am he classic case of ADD. Having to be pulled aside t take your test because someone swollowing distracts you is a problem. As a parent you feel overwhelmed and not able to keep the house duties up to ar. Now after both of us saying we want this to work we have to get help we are on top of our game. I can actually get what I need to done spend quality time with my son. Not pick and chisel at my spouse and not fight over things we should be able to speak to one another about, and its wonderful. I am not saying we took a magic pill and all of our problems are gone its a constant battle internally , but WE and I am able to take care of whats important with calmness and patience and that is what its all about.
Wow it feels like I disappeared from my blog altogether. Well I wish I could say alot has happened but the truth is life as a mother is what happens. The moments of single life and getting caught up is far beyond different from the mommy life I lead now. Not worse not better just different. So instead of trips to the keys or to the Colorado rockies or Vegas it’s been dr appts emergency room and dental work. It’s been I threshing to say the least. My first visit to the er w my child was far from fun. However my Samsung galaxy played an amazing roll and so did my amazing motger. It’s funny having children does really bridge the gap between mother and daughter. I don’t recommend having children just to do that. But it has helped my relationship. I also was blessed at the age of 33 to have my wisdom teeth pulled I use the term blessed loosely. After over 22 days of no solids I lost a whopping 20 lbs and the ability to digest dairy. Oh I looovveee cheese. So another trip to the emergency room with the hubby who threw his back out the fourth of July playing golf. I brought I. My 3rd birthday with stitches and not being able to eat cake …stupid wisdom teeth… well on a positive note I thought I would be able to start designing a swimwear line. Living in Florida is a must to have a swim suit but alas everyone is start a swimwear line again the industry is saturated with celebrities working with designing companies so frustrating. So now I have to go with a new idea. Hmmmmm well all in all. Not a horrible month but interesting for sure.